lisa

n'level is coming

2010-08-30T11:10:00.002+01:00

haha... hi guys long time no see le. i am back... after going to be 1 year? i suppose...
now i am very nervous cause my national exam is coming le...

thinking

2009-12-29T16:20:00.003Z

i think that everyone have their own life no matter there is any problems,there will be solution for it but the problem is did you ever think that solution before or you just only want to run away from it? just having fun is not a problem but it is because we does have this situation many times but have to say that if it the timing to play then let it be fun,if it is not the timing to have fun,then serious about it....

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2009-09-12T17:47:00.000+01:00

我觉得我已经变老了。。。
我已经开始忘了，很多东西在我脑海里。。。
我却不知到这是对的吗？？？
我也已经没有了自信心，也开始忘了我当初的目标了。。。。
我不知道我这么说是对的吗，因为我已经不知道我在说什么了。。。
就算是一个普通的题目，而且是我最有抱握的可以得到的分数，我也忘了怎么做了。。。
我其实可以做得很好，可是因为我的一个小错误，可以让人保守惊讶。。。
可能在有些人的眼中，我是聪明的，可是我其实是笨的。。。。
我也不会让人知道我的心情，我一直在表面上，是开心的。。。
可是我也有可能是装出来的，我不想让人被我的心情影响到。。。
我有时候觉得快要疯了，我就会找人说说心事，可是都是我一个人面对。。。
我不知道该这么做，我现在的心情好乱、好烦。。。
考试要到了，我越来越不知道要怎么做。。。。
我只知道说，我要考上中四，我也没有太大的心情去关那些有的没的东西。。。
现在我只知道我要温习而已。。。。

i am back

2009-09-03T09:52:00.000+01:00

haha...i am back long time did not update,the camp post i would not be able to update because not enough time to update as there were alots of things for me to settle so i would try to update as soon as possible..... Sorry.....

First day of camp....

2009-06-08T06:10:00.004+01:00

Hahaha....i am back,this few days my computer spoilt......

On the first day of camp,i went out of the house quite early like around 6.15? Because i am meeting jing wen at 6.20 at the bus stop because i have to meet anqi for my P.E shorts at sembawang mrt station on 7 a.m and we have to arrive at school on 7.30 so we are a bit of late but it really did not delay whole but in the end it still delayed because of temperature taking and other stuff so we delay about 10-20 mins? when we are in school,we have to fill up a white card to arrive malaysia,before that i can go for malaysia,actually i have a fight with my parents because it was me that want to go for camp but my parents don't allow because it crash to the timing for my mother go to hospital to check up her backbone so luckily my father take a leave so when i have left the house,my mum ask my dad to accompany me to the bus stop because it was too early in the morning and my mum scared of my safety then ask my father to accompany and gave me something to eat..... When i was on the bus to the woodlands checkpoint,i was already miss my parents,but i told myself that must be strong,after a few days when i was back to Singapore,i can go back home already....... In malaysia,we took about 1 hour plus to arrived at kota tinggi???? Haha,i am not sure..... After we put down our bags,we gather at the shelter then we hop into the bus and arrived at the vegetable farm,it was quite warm there but after around 1 hour plus of walking then it begin to rain,we all run back to the shelther that we just now having briefing then it is quite fun lah,under the rain and the best thing i had at there is that i have my favourite plant,which is lalang then i brought back to Singapore,yah it was a very good thing to me..... after that we went back to our campsite,we have around 1 hour of wash up then actually we are follow by index number but we just secretly changed without the instructor know,hahaha.... Then we have our dinner,then we are going to the firefly cruise,which the flies is quite special,i think at Singapore it is hard to find it..... The light that its gave out was like the chirstmas trees' light,it was beatiful,the bus that we took,it was like roller coaster,it was very fast when i laid down try to get some rest.... Then we went back to our room,the room is quite small but normally this room have 2 double bed but i was surprized that it sqeeuze 5 of us in the room.... End of Day 1 the rest of the days i will slowly update

secondary 3 camp

2009-05-24T16:20:00.005+01:00

Haha.....I am having camp tomorrow,this would be a overseas camp,which i had ever think about it that once in my life time that my secondary 3 camp will be overseas,this time will be at malaysia which is near singapore so there is a special but it is very near which is in JB so i don't really feel exitced or nervous because to me it is just a normal day to me but i will just leave my house for 3 days only..... i will be back till wednesday evening but i will continue to update my blog once i am back from my camp and will tell the most interesting part in the trip to malaysia and by the way is in JB of Kota Tinggi so i am quite ok but i have heard that there is waterfall haha.....

my stress

2009-04-29T14:12:00.002+01:00

可能是我对这几天的考试压力过大，我有点很难过，今天又拿回很烂的成绩，不过我跟自己说不能放弃，因为别人都做得到为什么我不可以，虽然这次很重要不过也没有跟年尾的考试来的重要

吧。。。今天又是一个很闷的天气，让我想睡觉，不过我熬得了，因为我已经在生病了，而且病得不得轻啊！！！不过考试后就不用忧愁了，可以休息了。。。。

现在我要加油，为了到达我的目标，我要真的加油了！！！我的目标是。。。。哈哈，不能说这是我的愿望，哈哈哈哈哈！！！

自己对人生的感觉

2009-04-10T09:47:00.002+01:00

总觉得人生对我来说有不一样的感觉．．．也不是说每一个人一定要跟别人比较说他比较幸运或不幸．因为每一个人都有不一样的命运，我也觉得人生真的很妙，因为我们都不知道我们的下一天是死或活，虽然我们都不知道，可是我们可以让我们的生活过得很精彩，俗话说开心是一天，伤心也是一天．那我们因该让我们自己的生活都过得开开心心的，都没有伤心的事，不过也不可能没有伤心的事．．．我觉得人生的意思人过的生活．．．

自己创作的，不知道在写什么

2009-04-10T09:13:00.003+01:00

爱上一个人不需要理由，
喜欢上一个人也不从需要理由，
爱和喜欢都是一种感觉，
不同的是这两种感觉的阶段，
这两种的感觉考验着彼此的信任，
没有了信任也没有了对对方的感情．．．

　　　　　这是另一个的创作

人生就像一个舞台，
我们也都是一个演员，
而我们每一个人都有不同的个性，
自己也有权力要走自己的路，
自己选了这条路就不能后悔了，
不后悔也好，后悔也罢，
遇到问题对自己说要跟着自己的心走就对了．．．
人生也可以学到了很多东西，也要自己去体会才能感受到了人生的乐趣，
而这就是人生．．．

blessing

2009-03-20T12:35:00.003Z

Today i went to see a doctor for my backbone and i was thanking Lord because i no need to wear the thing to make the backbone stable and no need to admit to hospital or operation.....

Actually i waited for the doctor for quite a long time around 2 hours and i need to going back to the hospital during next year around march for a X-ray so see first,i was quite being blessed by God as in the doctor said that my case is only need to observe it so it was very blessed already....

My mum and dad were very nervous while myself is that i don't have feeling at all because this two years i have no nervous but only sometimes haha.....

Desire

2009-03-17T12:47:00.006Z

When i heard this word 'Desire',i don't know it means at the start but as the time goes by i know what is the meaning as in my own word it means to think and hope that dream and make it to be come true....

Desire to be a shepherd is my dream also a believeable dream,i think as the longer i am in the group,i could learn a lots of stuff like to know that every year there is a dream or a wish for myself is every time my birthday,i will wish for the next year so there is a different kind of meaning to it.....

Every time i feel there is still a little bit of bitter because there is a lots of hardship that i am going though now or even i had already gone through but i until now then realised it is so easy as in i look back to the past,so life now to me is a meanful,now i treasure every friendship i have now as God help me to make the friend and also now this few best friend i am still contact with them and also i feel so happy to know them so well.....

Blessing from God

2009-03-03T12:03:00.003Z

I really want to thank God for giving me such a good result as in He let me feel that depend on Him is the a good choice even if you did not revise for that particular subject just like my phyiscs as in i really did not really study for that but i still pass very well and He help me to score a A2 for my physics in total......

There is still other subject,i don't want to list it out.....

Common Test

2009-02-20T14:31:00.002Z

Today,i had my English and Chinese paper for my common test....

To me for Chinese i can said that it was quite easy for me as in i had study for that part but in English i wrote composition,i think i will fail that part because i wrote it very badly...

I am going to pray that hope my social studies test on monday,i could pass it very well as in i am quite weak in writing essay instead i done well in source based questions.....

Wish that God can help me to memories all the keypoints in social studies,not just that but also my few other subject at the other 2 days......

Going to have sec 3 camp juz right after i get back my common test result,but my back injuries,the pain is back when i am running cause in sec 2 i had a bad fall and hit my back so i hope that my injuries will recover before the march hoildays so when i go camp,my back will not be so pain that i could run fast.....

I want to balance all my stuff includes my studies n ministry.....

Gone through with God

2009-02-20T14:18:00.002Z

I felt that this few days,God had blessed me so much that when my parent fought with each other,i protected my mum n said to my father the reason n he listen.......

Yesterday,it was a very "sian" day because my school dismiss us very early around 10 plus but went back home at around 4-5 pm...haha :)

I really felt that i had gone through many things with God n i felt that the time in church is very long,it felt like i was in church for around 10 years....

I felt that no matter how hard the problem it is but i think that although God cannot help us in our life but as Joan said that one word from God is better a thousand word from man as in His word spoke to us and gave us solution to solve the problems.....

No matter how hard the life which i am going to have in my life but i believe that God will be with me and will help me in any parts of our life,although i am not prefect but i can strike for the prefection of God.....

Believe is from our heart,not just only said as in if you spoke the words have it in action.....

learn a good teaching

2009-02-20T14:07:00.002Z

Today,i am having group shepherding with Rachel n Joan,i have learn that God is not juz a powerful God bt it was that He will be us the whole day if u want to spend the whole day with Him then u will be happy as in anything u will nt be like angry any kind of emotions.....

Happy New Year!!!

2009-01-25T13:49:00.003Z

Happy New Year!!!! I got my hongbao from my parents le.... i think God really blessed me, just now an uncle which i rent the room to him,he lend me a book which has a lots of short stories inside and he said to me that i give it to you,if you don't like can return to him but i read it,it is very intesting,i think it could improve my english as my english is very poor but i think God will help me in anyway to help me in anyway...

I hope that i could walk out of the news which was happened 2 days ago which is my granny had passed away,left me alone.....

She had her funeral today afternoon,actually when i heard the news i wish i could go to indonesia and send my granny last time but i could not cause i am having exams on wednesday so my mum ask me not to go,so i cried quite a long time,around 1 hour.....

Why is this happening to me?

2009-01-23T07:58:00.004Z

Actually i am having a very good mood but this afternoon i got a very bad news which is my Granny had passed away,my Granny is very good to me since i was young and she always care about me,help me all things in any areas and she always make me laugh and she is a very good granny to me after my grandma had passed away when i am 6 years old n another one is when i was 9 years old now although i am 15 years old now,this few grandmother is adore me in anywhere,i don't know what to do in my life now i have 1 more left which is my grandmother's sister,could said that every 'senior' which watch me grown up until now is very adore me in my life......

God's blessing

2009-01-11T13:39:00.003Z

I think God really blessed me so much.....

and yesterday service,pastor shirley,she said to us that,she have told God that she is tired tired but God told her something,i forgot....

But i think this is what God want to tell me......

i think that the teaching is telling me that God is our shepherd and He is with us thought the year as in how we are tired or any stuff,i like teachings

as in it tells me alots of the Word Of God.....

I think i am going to msn with God this 1 whole week not just that but everyday in my life...

The very new year...

2009-01-04T13:35:00.002Z

Haha,this year is a brand new year,last year all the saddness n stress could forget it.....
by the way,this started of the year when the counted down for this brand new year,i having cough n flu,but God will heal me,i have the Faith in Him....
Although is like that when the school reopen,my class is right at the side n is very far from the flag poll there i can't heard very good so i ask my friend,i think God really help me cause a few days ago,i lost my voice then i went to see a doctor but now is 3/4 heal.... I like this feeling when i have my voice back and i think i could go back to school 2moro le.... But i still have not talk very much as if i talk too much then i will cough but it feel better compared to the few days ago.....

My wish for 2009

2009-01-04T13:31:00.002Z

my wish for 2009 is hope that i could balance between my study n ministry n hope that my family can be healthy in this year n my last wish,haha......
I would not said it cause it is a secret in myself,haha....

birthday

2008-12-02T14:22:00.002Z

Yesterday,it was my 14 birthday i am 1 yr older haha.....
i having wod of life in church so i went back there on my birthday i did not celebrate with my mates but i order 1 cake before my birthday and i promise my parents that i will celebrate with them so i run back home and go to the cake shop and collected the cake n i wish 3 wishes that the first wan will be completing cg08,the second wan is hope that the people i know will be healthy then the third wan is haha..... i could not say it if not it will be come true.....:)

Tired Already

2008-10-31T03:43:00.002Z

This few year,i am very tired,can't have a smile on my face,maybe i would want to have a cold face on my face to cover my sadness for this few years......
Trouble in my heart,my family relationship already having cracks,i have no idea what to do already,i did not talk to my mum at all this few days,i don't know how to start to talk to her.....
I am too tired,i could not even think properly why i am on this world,i can feel that i am losing friends and family......

Don't know

2008-10-26T14:29:00.003Z

Everytime,i hear the worship song 'Still',

I would feeling of crying,this song is very nice....

As the chorus part of the first sentence,i think......

'When the oceans rise and thunders roars'

When is at this part,I feel that someone is protecting me with all the things.....

We can't hide even we are alone but God is wiith us though or whole life.....

As in Luke 12:22,i think don't worry about all the things that has happen on you.....

Just depend on God and He will make your path straight.......

In our life,there is a lots of blessing from God.....

As like today morning i have an eye sore,at that time.....

I asked God to help me heal my eye and He did heal for me......

He think of us and know what are we thinking about.....

Surrender all the things to him.....

In the exams,not matter we pass or fail,we still praise him,

And He is a good God,a powerful God,a God that we praise him in our whole life.....

Though Chirst,i have think a lot of stuff.....

When i was started,i thinking of give up but not i did not regret of my decision....

Having the first shepherding with Anqi and the teaching title is Faith...

I think that Faith is a true and believe on God and it can't be stop....

Faith is not just true and believe but trust is a main point in it.....

Trust God is our own decision,no one has disturp you before.....

As in chinese we said,一人做事一人当 which means that....

You do 1 thing but you must not regret on it....

You could not change the Fact but God have the ability to help you.....

2008-10-25T14:11:00.003+01:00

Haiz.... Long Time did not on blog leaving post now this few days i am quite free... A few weeks ago,it is restructing time.... It means that North A all change shepherd and sheep.....
Start some of the time i am nt quite use to it lah cause i have change shepherd...... But now i am quite ok in the situation,but feel like is very special cause it was like very time unit meet i saw liyan i will feel like she is my own shepherd but i have change shepherd to anqi lah....
But i am quite happy lah cause as it is said "The Old has Gone,The New has Come...."
Haha........... Don't know how to contiune...... Bye bah

Exams.....

2008-09-28T13:35:00.002+01:00

Haiz...... Exam is tomorrow for me i am very tired man......
I am going to having my first paper which it is english,i hate composition i always fail on that part,rest are ok for me.......
I am going to ask God for strength and i could be the salt and light of the kingdom of God......
Good luck to all of the people who are going to have exams or even now having exams.....

Tired

2008-09-27T13:06:00.004+01:00

I quarrel with my parents i am going to be crazy,everytime is like that they are already crazy liao don't know why,they don't know what they are thinking,they don't know the only child is what feeling they said they know then they does not know the real feeling about me even worse blame me of not caring about them i don't know why their mind is not like other parents???????
Wish i could lost all my memories even my relationship with them.... Remeber all the happy moments forget the bad memories.......
I don't want to have the shadow on top of me but i could see the light,the sun...... Even infront of me and behind of me there is a shadow not matter how i want to remove also can't......
Feeling sad everyday,almost every week i will have a fight with my parents,i don't know why but this is why i have on my mind.......
Everytime i will feeling weird no matter is at home or at anywhere...... I even think of when they going to leave me alone,i will be alone so i told myself be strong don't rely on parents but they two want me to rely on them....... I am feeling sad not at anywhere but at home...... I treat them as my best friends but they treat me as a daughter,maybe is i am no a filial daughter but in my heart i think they are the best parents i have,but they don't think so even worse don't let me go far scared me go make boyfriend or bad friends.....
I got different thoughts in my mind,my friend is important but parents are more important,i don't express myself but to quiet looking at them,see how they are going and are they good a not i have to share the room with my parents last time i think is different but now i think that i think it is good to stay in the same room as them.......
Everytime i said ok,i will think it after a few days that has happen,i even i ask myself that have i done too much to my parents but i don't think so..... But then i think i am have too much to my parents now they decided to see everytime i after school, they always suspect this,suspect that that is the reason that i have began to act weird and have weird feelings.....

bad day

2008-09-18T13:46:00.002+01:00

Today,i am unlucky cause i lost my purse inside has my ezlink card and popular member card......
I feel like no strength at all i am just keep praying and praying so i just use cash to pay my transport first if it is really lost i need to save money and do another 1....
I don't want my parents to know that,inside there is a lots of memories.......
I don't know how to said lah,just now hope that i could find back my purse......

injured

2008-09-12T14:35:00.002+01:00

I am injured,my back of my ankle is injured,it is very pain man......
Tomorrow i am going to service i hope it will heal......
I will ask for healing from god and i am not so feeling well also,i have a lots of sickness during 1 year..... End-of-year is coming,hope everyone could pass all their subject and i could take the subject i like.....

What to do!!!!!!!

2008-08-29T14:37:00.003+01:00

I fail 2 subject who can help me then i think my father know that i am a chirstian liao.... My friend is crying,how to comfort her she is my good friend.......

Scared already

2008-08-26T11:41:00.003+01:00

Yesterday, i fall down during P.E in the field,my waist is very pain but i bear with it,at night time it is very pain then i tell my mum but she don't care.....
Today,it is very pain until like can't really sit up very straight then my mum bring me to the doctor, the doctor said that my musclar has sprain it is very pain,i could not even walk fast, very pain....:( I almost cry and also i got hit my thumb when P.E, we were playing hockey then my friend's the stick hit my thumb, it blue-black..... Now i need to be careful don't hit my injuries.....

today

2008-08-23T13:41:00.002+01:00

Today,the service it is so fun,i want to cry cause rebecca going to other group,leaving us this few months i know her better and i was cryingnot only 1 time but 3 times cause joyce said touched words that i can't hold that i just let it go and just a few minutes ago,my mother beated me cause i was late home and she tell my god-mother.....
Why go church is bad,to me i just keep quiet,having family problems,i my life i have a lots of thinkings,feeling weird,feeling want to tell my parents that i am a chirstian,very upset can't stay back i have a lots feeling thought this few days,just want to cry it out like just now in the afternoon,now i am hearing the song of the backstreet,show me the meaning of lonely maybe is what is the my parents meaning.....
After this week,some of them going to change shepherd and caregroup,i don't want to change,i like this caregroup and shepherd if it is i will going to cry like a tap,why my parents are not like other parents have a little bit of mature and it is very bored that i will need to answer all their question,i always ask GOD why the difference between of me and other are so large,i just want have freedom....

blessing from god

2008-08-21T14:54:00.004+01:00

Last week i having common test,this week i got back my test paper i am very happy cause i do quite well expect my geography i have fail but i really done very well i really thank god that he has help me a lot....

today got back my lit test paper

2008-08-18T12:56:00.002+01:00

Today,i get back my literature common test paper back,on that day when i was going to take the test i ask god that can i do it?? I have no confident but i remember one of the verse in matthew 28:20,it said surely i am with you always,to the very end of the age....
When i got my paper i was sad cause i left half mark to pass but then when teacher said the class test result,i total up my scores i pass it,i said to myself yes i do it i did not fail to the salt and light and my parents would not nag at me..... Happy!!!! :) still got few more subject in order to know did i all pass a not.... haha

Don't know wat to do

2008-08-17T11:44:00.002+01:00

I have a lots of question in my heart since yesterday i really want to find the answer but i could not find,yesterday i lost my pencil box i was very sad cause i have a lots of pen and pencil inside all the things is cost around 30/40 dollars.....
I keep praying and praying that i could find back my pencil box i can not need to buy all the things again it is so expensive to buy the whole back at one time....
I really don't know waht to do as one time my uncle who i rent the room to him,he said that my church is nt the real church,i stunned i really don't know what to do and want to go back to hope church a not....who can help me i don't know????
In my life i have a lots of things i don't understand even though i have stress and people asking me about the things,i don't like to talk to the strangers but sometimes i ask myself can i do it when i went for the first outreach,i always could not find the answer i have no confidence to do it even in the test i also the same i just let go pass or fail it is fate,i felt headach also cause need to balance ministry and studies,i still can't cope it,i think i need time to balance both of it in order to balance other stuff.....

Upset

2008-08-14T12:06:00.002+01:00

Today,my SIM card has broke already...
I very upset but the test for today is very diffcult i want to cry already....
Tomorrow i am having D&T and maths hope i can do my best and be the salt and light for god...

school today

2008-08-13T13:49:00.002+01:00

Today,very fun and tired lah.... Morning having literature test then i don't know how to do it,i just anyhow do lol.... After that is history test it is so easy by the way i did a good job in my chinese it hits my target just nice 80 i am going to target 85 in end of year exam...
I was slept after finish my literature test,i hate my science teacher cause she was like always said that pay attention,yes or no eg....
Just after history test is her lesson,i was sleeping she asked me why i did not pay attention in the class i said i need textbook she said no need i was like oh my god i always need textbook in the class she just don't let us take our bags i was very tired studying for this week common test after finish 4 subject i still left 4 subject i did not feel worry cause i will know that god will alway with me till the end of the years....
This few days i am not feeling quite well having headaches and feeling like sleeping,just want to rest and have a good sleep,i need to slim down and having a good sleep,wish can no need wake up sleep until ownself wake up..... Tomorrow having geography and science test,Hope all the people that having exam can pass all the subject and those having prwlim can go their favourite school and study the course that they like....

beijing olympic

2008-08-08T16:35:00.002+01:00

Wow!! today is the beijing olympic,tomorrow is national day,today is celebrate in school,i am a IT member teacher ask me to do duty so i was like running like what lol...
I went to the polyclinic cause my mother was sick then she need to the doctor then i go then i arrive home is very tiring and my leg is very painful,until now still pain... :( Tomorrow national day i don't know what to do,at home watching TV or playing computer,i am very tiring as today i woke up around 5 plus,my eyes can't open,i want continue sleeping but this duty can have CCA points...
I hope that singapore can help us to win medals,especially badminton i love to play badminton but very long time did not play,want to play but no time,i now almost 6 or 7 plus then arrive home expect for today haha so happy can g back home so early but this is not the earliest time,it is in last year we just finish our maths exam paper for the mid-year exam lol... Around 9 plus can go home finish go home so good... Later going to sleep until quite late in the morning for tomorrow...
HAPPY 43 BIRTHDAY TO SINGAPORE!!!!

Happening things for today and tomorrow

2008-08-07T16:04:00.003+01:00

Today,i have science class test,i did not study but at least can pass i think so...
I was too tired that tomorrow is national day,today have musuc lesson then teacher want us to sing the songs then i juz sing without voice,haha so happy :) teacher did not found out,in the class i was going to sleep when i arrive home is around 4 plus already,still need to prepare for next week common test man... Still got school tution,saturday i can't go out at night,my shepherd said they will having firework to celebrate national day,i want to go... :( my mum did not allow me to go out at night as it is until 10,i wish i can like them can go back home late....
Tomorrow,i will having duty as we will celebrate national day and i need to take photo,there is a minster coming to canberra areas,my teacher said that me and my classmate,one will take photos,one will take video,today both of us discuss that we will half half means we will take turns to take photos and video....
I wish i can pass my geograpy and history test cause i did not take the class test,teacher said that we will depend on the common test,wish GOD will help though the whole common test days,having a lots of problem lah,wish can solve it quickly and soon the holidays are coming wish i can rest for a few days then prepare for my end-of-year exam,this year i need to choose what subject which i want to take next year,i don't know what to choose...
Hope i can pass and go to sec 3 to stress for this few days,the subject hope i can find out the maths stuff until that time then choose lol,finsh this common test first then started worry...
Someone can help me with the subjects that i can't cope with it...

life to me

2008-08-05T13:55:00.002+01:00

To me,life is very busy,24 hours is really not enough for me...
I want to play but i have family problems,i really don't know why parents are so different???

I have a lots of question mark in my heart,i do feeling like giving up but jesus did help me a lot although most of my friends,they are busy,i was like i am not in their world but in my own world, problem is always beside me,although i have changed a lot but people started to ignore me i do want to cry but i always tell myself don't cry be a strong girl,but i sometimes really can't do it...
What is mt target i still don't know,what is my dream i still don't know,sch projects that is one sometimes i do feel that i can't cope with the leader role,they all ask me to do leader,i just say ok but now i finally understand that why people don't want leader cause it takes all the responsibillty and jobs i getting feeling like i am a bad leader nobody like to be a leader it is so tough for me...

i did nt regret

2008-08-05T13:36:00.002+01:00

I did not regret after started my very first service,i am proud to be come jesus child, i learn a lots of things,change when i look at my photo which is about 3 year old plus until now,but sometimes when other people pass the subject then i think that why they can do it why i can't....
Some of the times i do regret that why i make myself even busy than last time,but i know that in life we need to learn to grow up,independent all that stuff.... But this few days i do some regret of going service as a lots of things happen to me,but i said to myself that i will manage the time as i go on going service,to me study is important but i do think that if i think like that why my shepherd,liyan they all can cope with their timing,time goes faster...
I think i going to fall but someone has holded me,sometimes i wonder is it i put too much effort on study or what,to me is like study,meetings,tution,thinking that 24 hours is not enough for me...
Sometimes my friend will tell me her secret,i will feel like maybe in future i will be like her,i do feel that sometimes my classmate ask me why you always so busy,why you can't juz take a rest??? I want to rest but life no matter you live the life very busy or what,you will still need to live the life until you died,time fast or slow is depend how you manage the time...

Don't know wat 2 do

2008-07-13T04:36:00.000+01:00

2day don't know wat 2 do after study,svc all the things having a lots of feeling in my heart doing quiet time talking 2 jesus juz having fun...
I juz don't know y parents like 2 giv us stress??? getting stressful than ever juz wan 2 relax n having some fun don't care anything a lots of things in my mind is contiune like flashing the memories i have when i was young... Fall down n got a broke arm heal after 4-5 months...
Sad,Happy,Miserable is my feeling this few days...
Don't know wat has happen 2 this world in my life like getting from bad 2 worse...
I still can't understand y a lots of homework 2 do... Feeling strange in my heart... I juz feeling like crying i think that no 1 knows hw i feel but i nid 2 be strong...

became a jesus child

2008-07-12T16:12:00.000+01:00

When i were in the church as is my first time 2 go chrch i don't know wat 2 do but after that liyan(my shepherd) explain 2 me everything i accept jesus in my life i was like the time flew very fast i don't know how long that i have in church but i do know some new friends started i was feeling like this all are dream after that all things has happen i knew it that it was not a dream i talk 2 god...
Sometimes i feel that very stressful but i have some words in my mind that i no matter in school or i went out feels like GOD is with me getting all the stress out of my mind and depenting just on jesus i always need him no matter i have anything that it is in mind or have problem...