不知道该怎么说

现在我真的不知道要怎么做，心很乱，做这个可能不对，做那个可能又不对。
时间好妙哦！不知不觉两个月了。好无聊，想跟他小聊天，可是他很忙，我又不能一直烦他。那么要怎么做呢？很想他！:(

Burden? Problem? Obey!

Haiz... Don't know why that I have such a feeling... I suddenly felt that I am a burden to my bf.... I suddenly felt like I am a very irritating person... Yesterday was the prayermeet i felt very refresh and happy then today my mum vomit in my heart i have prayed and ask God for help maybe i don't have the sense but i have really thank God for everything... Yesterday i was really thank God although yesterday my LG was only 3 person but i know God had spoken to me... Maybe suddenly God ask me to really do His word in a special way and i was so happy that i was able to lead a group prayer.... I was so happy that dear is with me when on the way to prayermeet with my group although it led to friends to know but at least i felt conmfort... Although today is our 2nd month anni and we couldn't celebrate together but yesterday just the time had turn 12 midnight we were on our way home.... :) so there is a time spending with each other.... But i hope that God had gave us more... But i know that God would have His way and maybe this is the problems that we have to face till the big problem comes which is a cliff rather than a valley... But hope that God would bless me and the people around me also hope that my sister and brother have a good day... Hope that everything between me and dear would have a good and well time spent with each other also to my friends as well who are now struggling with relationship also studies.... Also for my studies,may God have bless me and I would continue to praise God and to obey His words and i would need to buy a bible soon because the phone bible is seriously make me to play games rather to know the word of God... Also wish that i would not be a burden to dear who love me a lot and also that i can be independent when i am not with him and miss him a lot... :(

Rather to be sick

Now is heavy rain,just came back with a wet and cold body... Now i really rather to be sick as not many things will be in my mind... I am very confused now,don't know what to do,just don't want to change my clothes felt like i want to go and under the heavy rain again... 站在雨中，人就不知道我是在哭还是雨水滴在我的脸上，心情真的很不好受。我不知道要怎样面对现实，不知道要往哪里走，我的目标是什么，我的理想是什么，每个女孩子都想要有一个完整的家，可是我有个半破碎的家，很多事都要我扛，看来我年底的梦想应该是破灭了。只好等到我真的有能力才能去做吧！希望的我的梦想能成真，不让我的遗憾可能会很大！

miss him

Haiz... so miss him... Today suppose to meet him but he is busy right now i was sad but on sunday we are meeting up again so busy recently.... He looks so tired.... Really hope that God would always with him to give him strength... But now i am feeling okay but just that i am thinking of things of what to do about my exams and also to get busy so i won't disturb him.... No matter what i must not disturb him for anything and affect him by my emotions... Hope he is happy now....

What to do...

Now i am confused... I really don't know what to do... Look at him so busy i want to help him but i could not,i got no stand tohelp him in anything... :( see him so tired,my heart feels pain for him...now i try not to disturb him what he said to me yesterday make me feels that i scared that he will leave me... Left me all alone...

Felt sweet today

Felt very sweet from dear today! So happy that he is with me again the whole day although is like only a few hours but i am very happy and also good that he is with me and i will cherish every single second of mins with him,no matter what i really want to thank him cause he made an effort today to follow me to go buy what my mum wants and he then go have his lunch.... I felt very sweet! As in like not every guy would want to follow a girl to buy stuff especially in a hot weather and also take his lunch after buying my things! :) very happy and i felt very blessful by God! As in what God send him to me is a really big present and i really thank God of what He had done to my life also in dear's life! :) I really want to thank God and dear who had help me in my life and really to change some parts of my life! No matter what now as in my national exams are coming... I will continue to walk with God and i will accompany dear no matter what happen just hope that not very serious things will happen and we can influence each other by our good side! Also what God want us to do to expand His Kingdom and His way for us! :)

Sick

Felt super sick now although there is no more flu but i felt like vomitting... Damn suffering man... :( so many things have happen so stressful... Ah!!! What to do seriously too stress need to go and destress le... No matter what by this week i need to relax my mind also must take my medicine as normal if not really is super dizzy and having a terrible headache!