Today,the service it is so fun,i want to cry cause rebecca going to other group,leaving us this few months i know her better and i was cryingnot only 1 time but 3 times cause joyce said touched words that i can't hold that i just let it go and just a few minutes ago,my mother beated me cause i was late home and she tell my god-mother.....
Why go church is bad,to me i just keep quiet,having family problems,i my life i have a lots of thinkings,feeling weird,feeling want to tell my parents that i am a chirstian,very upset can't stay back i have a lots feeling thought this few days,just want to cry it out like just now in the afternoon,now i am hearing the song of the backstreet,show me the meaning of lonely maybe is what is the my parents meaning.....
After this week,some of them going to change shepherd and caregroup,i don't want to change,i like this caregroup and shepherd if it is i will going to cry like a tap,why my parents are not like other parents have a little bit of mature and it is very bored that i will need to answer all their question,i always ask GOD why the difference between of me and other are so large,i just want have freedom....
