不知道该怎么说

现在我真的不知道要怎么做，心很乱，做这个可能不对，做那个可能又不对。
时间好妙哦！不知不觉两个月了。好无聊，想跟他小聊天，可是他很忙，我又不能一直烦他。那么要怎么做呢？很想他！:(

Burden? Problem? Obey!

Haiz... Don't know why that I have such a feeling... I suddenly felt that I am a burden to my bf.... I suddenly felt like I am a very irritating person... Yesterday was the prayermeet i felt very refresh and happy then today my mum vomit in my heart i have prayed and ask God for help maybe i don't have the sense but i have really thank God for everything... Yesterday i was really thank God although yesterday my LG was only 3 person but i know God had spoken to me... Maybe suddenly God ask me to really do His word in a special way and i was so happy that i was able to lead a group prayer.... I was so happy that dear is with me when on the way to prayermeet with my group although it led to friends to know but at least i felt conmfort... Although today is our 2nd month anni and we couldn't celebrate together but yesterday just the time had turn 12 midnight we were on our way home.... :) so there is a time spending with each other.... But i hope that God had gave us more... But i know that God would have His way and maybe this is the problems that we have to face till the big problem comes which is a cliff rather than a valley... But hope that God would bless me and the people around me also hope that my sister and brother have a good day... Hope that everything between me and dear would have a good and well time spent with each other also to my friends as well who are now struggling with relationship also studies.... Also for my studies,may God have bless me and I would continue to praise God and to obey His words and i would need to buy a bible soon because the phone bible is seriously make me to play games rather to know the word of God... Also wish that i would not be a burden to dear who love me a lot and also that i can be independent when i am not with him and miss him a lot... :(