Crying

Now almost every Day since friday i have been crying... Yesterday was the big cry but no one knows i have to say out then other people know people ask am i okay but actually in my heart i am not okay at all... I have been hurting my physical body but i don't feel pain at all just having tears down my cheecks... I now don't have the mood to be cheer up... Now i am a sinful person... Cause i am drinking beer the 2nd time within 2 days... I felt better after hurting and drinking... But no one knows my feeling even i have to tell him to check my blog then he will notice what happen... :(