I quarrel with my parents i am going to be crazy,everytime is like that they are already crazy liao don't know why,they don't know what they are thinking,they don't know the only child is what feeling they said they know then they does not know the real feeling about me even worse blame me of not caring about them i don't know why their mind is not like other parents???????
Wish i could lost all my memories even my relationship with them.... Remeber all the happy moments forget the bad memories.......
I don't want to have the shadow on top of me but i could see the light,the sun...... Even infront of me and behind of me there is a shadow not matter how i want to remove also can't......
Feeling sad everyday,almost every week i will have a fight with my parents,i don't know why but this is why i have on my mind.......
Everytime i will feeling weird no matter is at home or at anywhere...... I even think of when they going to leave me alone,i will be alone so i told myself be strong don't rely on parents but they two want me to rely on them....... I am feeling sad not at anywhere but at home...... I treat them as my best friends but they treat me as a daughter,maybe is i am no a filial daughter but in my heart i think they are the best parents i have,but they don't think so even worse don't let me go far scared me go make boyfriend or bad friends.....
I got different thoughts in my mind,my friend is important but parents are more important,i don't express myself but to quiet looking at them,see how they are going and are they good a not i have to share the room with my parents last time i think is different but now i think that i think it is good to stay in the same room as them.......
Everytime i said ok,i will think it after a few days that has happen,i even i ask myself that have i done too much to my parents but i don't think so..... But then i think i am have too much to my parents now they decided to see everytime i after school, they always suspect this,suspect that that is the reason that i have began to act weird and have weird feelings.....
