Don't know wat to do

I have a lots of question in my heart since yesterday i really want to find the answer but i could not find,yesterday i lost my pencil box i was very sad cause i have a lots of pen and pencil inside all the things is cost around 30/40 dollars.....
I keep praying and praying that i could find back my pencil box i can not need to buy all the things again it is so expensive to buy the whole back at one time....
I really don't know waht to do as one time my uncle who i rent the room to him,he said that my church is nt the real church,i stunned i really don't know what to do and want to go back to hope church a not....who can help me i don't know????
In my life i have a lots of things i don't understand even though i have stress and people asking me about the things,i don't like to talk to the strangers but sometimes i ask myself can i do it when i went for the first outreach,i always could not find the answer i have no confidence to do it even in the test i also the same i just let go pass or fail it is fate,i felt headach also cause need to balance ministry and studies,i still can't cope it,i think i need time to balance both of it in order to balance other stuff.....