What to do!!!!!!!

I fail 2 subject who can help me then i think my father know that i am a chirstian liao.... My friend is crying,how to comfort her she is my good friend.......

Scared already

Yesterday, i fall down during P.E in the field,my waist is very pain but i bear with it,at night time it is very pain then i tell my mum but she don't care.....
Today,it is very pain until like can't really sit up very straight then my mum bring me to the doctor, the doctor said that my musclar has sprain it is very pain,i could not even walk fast, very pain....:( I almost cry and also i got hit my thumb when P.E, we were playing hockey then my friend's the stick hit my thumb, it blue-black..... Now i need to be careful don't hit my injuries.....

today

Today,the service it is so fun,i want to cry cause rebecca going to other group,leaving us this few months i know her better and i was cryingnot only 1 time but 3 times cause joyce said touched words that i can't hold that i just let it go and just a few minutes ago,my mother beated me cause i was late home and she tell my god-mother.....
Why go church is bad,to me i just keep quiet,having family problems,i my life i have a lots of thinkings,feeling weird,feeling want to tell my parents that i am a chirstian,very upset can't stay back i have a lots feeling thought this few days,just want to cry it out like just now in the afternoon,now i am hearing the song of the backstreet,show me the meaning of lonely maybe is what is the my parents meaning.....
After this week,some of them going to change shepherd and caregroup,i don't want to change,i like this caregroup and shepherd if it is i will going to cry like a tap,why my parents are not like other parents have a little bit of mature and it is very bored that i will need to answer all their question,i always ask GOD why the difference between of me and other are so large,i just want have freedom....

blessing from god

Last week i having common test,this week i got back my test paper i am very happy cause i do quite well expect my geography i have fail but i really done very well i really thank god that he has help me a lot....

today got back my lit test paper

Today,i get back my literature common test paper back,on that day when i was going to take the test i ask god that can i do it?? I have no confident but i remember one of the verse in matthew 28:20,it said surely i am with you always,to the very end of the age....
When i got my paper i was sad cause i left half mark to pass but then when teacher said the class test result,i total up my scores i pass it,i said to myself yes i do it i did not fail to the salt and light and my parents would not nag at me..... Happy!!!! :) still got few more subject in order to know did i all pass a not.... haha

Don't know wat to do

I have a lots of question in my heart since yesterday i really want to find the answer but i could not find,yesterday i lost my pencil box i was very sad cause i have a lots of pen and pencil inside all the things is cost around 30/40 dollars.....
I keep praying and praying that i could find back my pencil box i can not need to buy all the things again it is so expensive to buy the whole back at one time....
I really don't know waht to do as one time my uncle who i rent the room to him,he said that my church is nt the real church,i stunned i really don't know what to do and want to go back to hope church a not....who can help me i don't know????
In my life i have a lots of things i don't understand even though i have stress and people asking me about the things,i don't like to talk to the strangers but sometimes i ask myself can i do it when i went for the first outreach,i always could not find the answer i have no confidence to do it even in the test i also the same i just let go pass or fail it is fate,i felt headach also cause need to balance ministry and studies,i still can't cope it,i think i need time to balance both of it in order to balance other stuff.....

Upset

Today,my SIM card has broke already...
I very upset but the test for today is very diffcult i want to cry already....
Tomorrow i am having D&T and maths hope i can do my best and be the salt and light for god...