i did nt regret

I did not regret after started my very first service,i am proud to be come jesus child, i learn a lots of things,change when i look at my photo which is about 3 year old plus until now,but sometimes when other people pass the subject then i think that why they can do it why i can't....
Some of the times i do regret that why i make myself even busy than last time,but i know that in life we need to learn to grow up,independent all that stuff.... But this few days i do some regret of going service as a lots of things happen to me,but i said to myself that i will manage the time as i go on going service,to me study is important but i do think that if i think like that why my shepherd,liyan they all can cope with their timing,time goes faster...
I think i going to fall but someone has holded me,sometimes i wonder is it i put too much effort on study or what,to me is like study,meetings,tution,thinking that 24 hours is not enough for me...
Sometimes my friend will tell me her secret,i will feel like maybe in future i will be like her,i do feel that sometimes my classmate ask me why you always so busy,why you can't juz take a rest??? I want to rest but life no matter you live the life very busy or what,you will still need to live the life until you died,time fast or slow is depend how you manage the time...